Thanks for your support sugarbaby. I am very sorry to hear about your little girl. I am really glad that you have been able to heal with the help of your new pup.

My Becky also has a heart condition that is why the vets ruled out surgery for her. She passes out a lot too but since the vet prescribed vetmedin, to go along with fortekor and flusapex, the fainting spells have been much better. I always thought that her heart would be what would take her from me but it looks as though the bladder tumors are going to get there first. I like your saying of giving her wings that sounds much better to me. I have had euthanasia organized with the vet for a couple of weeks now just in case I need it.

I too have started looking at new pups. There is a little black, long haired boy that I am interested in that will be ready in about 4 weeks. I am very conflicted though as I feel like I am betraying Becky somewhat by looking around while she is still with me. But I don't think I will be able to survive the great hole that her passing is going to leave in my life. My gut is telling me that I should get another pup straight away. I thought if I got a little boy that was a completely different colour then it wouldn't be like I was replacing her so much.

I am really grateful for finding this forum, it is really helping being around others that have gone through the same thing.

Jen