Hi,
I dont really tell many this as most people think you are crazy or mad and some even get put in mental homes for having it... as nobody gave them the time and helped them!

But around the age of 12-13 I suffered from OCD... its got so bad I was almost suicidal! I couldnt cope with the routines and constantly felt like I had to do certain routines/chores and punish myself if I did the slightest thing wrong!
Its like being 24/7 constant aware of what your doing and if you could be hurting anyone in anyway. (Dont worry if your aware of your family friend people ect...and think you have OCD... Im talking EXTREME... like having to check the plug sockets to make sure there was no water on them evan if no water had spilt or anything... having to make sure every light was turned off in the house evan if the lights were off at night!)
And basically having routines... especially wahing your hands... my hands were so dry if I moved them they would crack and spilt (bleed)
Popel with OCD are constantly obsessed with cleaning... and are so concerned that they would harm or hurt anyone in anyway. Like Id be scared that Id give my little brother a desease (evan though I dont have a deasese) as with OCD you are constantly scared that you will harm others and seem to live with the guilt of harming others evan if you havent harmed others. Having OCD (at an extreme) stops you daily life.. I remember I wouldnt evan watch Eastenders (A british soap) unless Id checked my windows were closed in my bedroom and everyone elses in the houses windows.. incase I was watching telly and someone fell out... (I know it sounds so silly) but thats how you think with OCD. Why would I want to watch Eastenders (tv) for my benefit and put myself before someone else. Id get so stressed and fustrated and would hurt myself because I was confused.. had no idea what or why I was doing this and didnt want to carry on. My mum and family were confused and petrified to think I was gonna lock myself up and never come out! My mum didnt know anything about OCD (neither did I) and was scared to take me to the doctors incase they took me off of her and put me in a mental home or something! It took about a year and a half to get over it (I no lol Im freeeeee) and I couldnt have done it without my mum... gradually over a period of time (you cant expect it to go away straight away) With everything I thought of... the windows.. plugs and everthing I asked my mum questions and she answered them and it really helped me! I began to recover because I admitted to myself that I had a problem! Evan when you have OCD and look at everyone who act normal .. to you they're not normal and you dont understand why they are not checking plugs.. windows ect... you just dont realise that you are the only one doing it so maybe you are wrong.
As I said onceI admitted I had a problem (I never admitted it was OCD untill about a year and a half later after I was better) things began to get better... and I knew I had to stop!
It was tough... stressful and very hard but I thought I would share it all with you as Im freeee lol no Im fine now and after 2 years of hell I feel back to normal me lol
I dont have no problems anymore or anything lol But... I do have memories
I just want to let anyone know who has this problem that you can do it! You can! I feel really bad watching the tv and seeing adults with this problem who have had it there whole lives as 2 years and I broke down... how could you handle a whole life! For the uk readers ----> theres a proggrame on tonight on channel 4 http://www.channel4.com/health/micro...d/wwr_ocd.html about people living together with this problem to help solve it. Personally from my own experience I dont think anyone of them will recover until they admit to themselves that there is a problem...
then they can try and realise where it came from ect.. and what caused it to spring about!


More infomation on OCD ---->
http://www.ocfoundation.org/


{If anyone on the forum has it and needs help I'll be more than happy to chat with them about more of my experiences and how I got through it!)

BTW... I recovered at about 14.. and am 16 now so 2 years without it.. and it aint coming back Im so much more a happier person!!!!!

Luv stef xxxxxxxxxx

Oh, Stef, I had no idea. Bless you for talking so openly about this. I can see where something like that would take over your life in a way I probably can't fully imagine. I'm awfully glad you and your mum were able to get past this so you're now able to experience all that life can offer.

Another brave young lady.

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I no theres so many brave people on this site that have admitted past and present problems so they inspired me to type mine

My mums my rock... shes so strong.. she never breaksdown! ALways looks on the brightside! If only the world was full of mums

awwwww Stef well done you are amazing and I Am definately interested in watching that programme tonight

you are brilliant, amazing, cool, mature, likeable, kind, generous and most of all Loveable

aww thanks clare.. yes that programme looks great... I really feel for the people on there (watch how fustrated they get )
Do I need to tel you how much I admire you again?! lol
xxxx

lol stef I know you do babe - I really hope this meetup works out as I am dying to meet you

lol ow no your not
Ive pm'd 30 people from the uk... and am hoping to find more
I can think of a few people to but usernames are hard to remember lol
Im hoping we could make a fair distance between everyone.. or almost fair So I thought yes the midlands as its the middle.. see what everyone else thinks
erm the date will still have to be confirmed lol as Im sure everyone is quite busy in the holidays... ect... and might need a few months so theyknow they are free?
xxxxx

anytime after october the 16th is fine with me as until then I am sorting wedding and my wedding party out