Hello... I'll start with the short story about my past...
9-11-2007 i was in an incident at school/college where my roommate was bullying me and harrassing me. I tried to report her but before I could she told a lie to the school administrators/RA's that i went after her with an object and was later arrested for something i didn't do.

I got diagnosed with PTSD and depression. Life got worse last September though when i went for a deposition for a lawsuit i brought on to the school and the roommate.

I haven't truly slept in over a year. My mind won't shut down at all. I have to sleep via melatonin and now ambien since i recently found out that you can't take melatonin when you are depressed. My mind went "blank" last fall and I really can't motivate myself to do anything. But what is worse is that my life is flashing before my eyes in my mind like all the small details - getting pets, playing tricks on my grandpa, etc. It won't stop. It feels like more of a movie then my life.

Along with that I get a "high feeling" in my brain that is weird. It does go away when i eat something but i really don't feel like myself. I have difficulty talking to people-even my own family. and don't have any interests what-so-ever. I don't enjoy things I used to in the past.

I don't know what i want in life... i'm 25 years old and just can't stand living like this any more. I am on anti-depressant which hasnt helped...

can anybody help?

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Megan, are you in therapy? Seeing a counselor? Sweetie, you need to be. It's really hard to get better on your own. Have you talked to your parents about this? (You live with them, right?) Tell them how you are feeling and they should get an appointment for you to talk with someone. Medications are fine, but you need someone to talk to that can help you work this out and overcome these feelings of depression and helplessness. There IS help out there! You don't have to go through this alone!

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i have alot of problems n because of that im under great stress.my immune system is so bad that im disabled,i have to have heart surgery to replace my heart defibrillator,i cant work as a vet tech anymore because i caught toxoplasmosis from a cat n developed brain lesions b-cause of it,my 8yr old cant live w/me bcause he has cerebral palsy n autism so he cant walk or talk(i gave him up 4 adoption to his physical therapist).on top of all that i only live off disability(1000/mth),my landlord wants me out this mth cuz im on housing n she wants more than they give(she had repeatedly assured me during the last year she was resigning my lease on oct 1st but i got a letter from her sept 1st).i dont have the money to move n whos gonna rent to me w/5 pups??ive gotten so sick from the stress that my hairs falling out in clumps.i have nausea,vomiting,diarrhea,lost 15lbs in 4 wks,sleeping too much or not at all(it goes back n forth),started picking at my arms cuz its become a nervous habit,ptsd,panic attacks that have increased in intensity n volume(have had to increase my mental health meds).i KNOW what youre going through.ALL i can tell u is itll get better.time goes on no matter what(what is now the future will soon be the past).my 15yr old son-jeremy-does live w/me n i have to remind myself that he still needs me-if it wasnt 4 him n my pups i dont know what id do.HANG IN THERE!!!if u want to pm me just to have someone to vent to u can.it WILL get betteredit:someone else mentioned that it takes up to 6wks for depression meds to kick in.some meds r not 4 every1.if they havent kicked in by then ur dr mite want to try a dif kind-it took me years to find the correct combo of meds.exercise was another good thought.maybe u could even go out 4 a walk a couple of times a day-anything to break up the routine.dont stay in the house all the time by yourself.i'll be praying for you

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I used to have a lots of problems, I turn my life over to God. He took all my emotional problems away. No longer need medication for depression. I am true believer it was God who healed me and I have never been content and happier. I repented and read and study my bible and keep Jesus close to me every day. I will Pray for you. I am happy even though I suffer everyday with Fibromyalgia and RSD, and Bladder problems.

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Hi, Depression is a tough game. I have suffered wth it for 19 years, and I just wonder how long have you been on your antidepressants cos sometimes it can take anything upto 6 weeks just for them to get into your system?

It is hard to see how things can be any better when you are depressed, but seriously they do get better. I had post natal depression which as a result I ended up being housebound due to a severe anxiety disorder and panic attacks and developing agorophobia, some people would say thats tough, but I do firmly believe you would not be given it if you could not bear it.

Also what does not kill us does make us stronger, I believe everything that happens in life is a series of lessons and we are supposed to learn something from it, sometimes you have to look a bit deeper to actually see whats going on.

I am going through a bout of feeling very down at the moment, mainy because of my 2 chi's I lost, but I also know it CAN only get better, and thats what you need to do, set yourself a small target everyday, something which is achievable and eventually you will get enjoyment and pleasure out of everyday things.

I find its my dogs who cheer me up just by having them around me, if you look hard enough you will find something.

Or you could try a counsellor as someone else suggested, it may work for you or it may not, but the key is in the trying.xxxx.

I can't comment on clincal depression as I'm not in that field, but
have you considered exercise - specifically very physical exercise ?

That you stated you don't know what you want, and that you can't stand remaining as you are, sort of suggests you might benefit from something to focus on.

If you can find a form of exercise you are passionate about, it can make a huge difference in your life. It could be weight lifting, marathon running, biking, martial arts, or any number of things.

Strenuous exercise not only makes your body stronger ( making you feel better in general) but releases endorphins that calm you mind, and make it easier to deal with stressful situations. Also, the confidence and pose you gain from martial arts or general fitness changes your daily outlook on life.

You don't have to be in it for the competition, either. My workouts are based on boxing and MMA skills, because I love these sports, but I'm not particularly interested in competing (other than against myself).


Try a lot of different things, and hopefully you can find something that you can feel passionate about.

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You need to see a good therapist. Medications only treat symptoms not the root of the problem. Proper therapy is hard and from personal experience it gets worse before it gets better but you nerd to see someone.

I agree also with Alan exercise is a great natural anti depressant those endorphins do wonders.

Always remember there is always someone else worse off than you, life's too short and you are v v young with your whole life ahead of you. You have two options on life curl up and not deal with your issues or fight them and make the most of your life!! Good luck

Turning your life over to God is a very good idea he can make things ALOT better and also ambein might be causing some of your problems It caused my momma some really bad problems you need to try a different sleeping pill.I also have Fibromyalgea and IBS and Asthma and anexity problems.
I will be praying for you.

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