i think i will try 2 visit his little memorial korner this week end, maybe write a couple of words on his stone...i havent been to the back yard since it happend since thats where he was burried....my mates dad and my son made a memorial spot with a huge stone and said when im ready i should go write to him, i havent been able 2 yet. i think by the week end maybe ill try, wish me luck. and ty alll so much for being here 4 me , it means so much 2 me. and for those of u that have gone thru this also, hugs 2 you and sorry for all ur loses as well. seeing how strong you all are and reading your words inspires me to be strong and you are right he will always be here with me in my heart and my lil guardian angel! hugs all**

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The picture in my siggy always brings a smile to my face, when i took it he was staring straight at me thinkin "grrrr stop takin pics of me woman" he didnt like the camera but that time he posed.

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Aw, very sorry for your pain, little peanut knew how much you loved and cherished him, and you gave him a wonderful life filled with joy and happineess and many treats. Take comfort in the fact that you will see him again one day at the railbow bridge. it's very sad that our beloved pets don't live as long as we do, but just be so very greatful that the two of you had one another to love and trust. RIP little Peanut. The little memorial corner you have for him sounds like a wonderful peaceful place to visit your little guy.

I found peanuts first sweater today .....he used to pee all over it every time i washed it..gues it was his way of saying momma get this off of me....i washed it and am keeking it ina safe spot...maybe one day "his clone" will wear it....i still look for pups that resemble him...so far i havent found any at shelters or know any one i trust enuff to get a pup from around my area...craigslist is usually full of greedy breeders that just breed for money...yet i still look for peanuts clone on there daily...i found a look alike on a texas chi site...wow 1500+ for the pup ....will i ever find my peanut clone? I just want my baby back...I have been trying to just focus on the girls for now...and maybe just maybe one day a peanut clone will just come into my world when i least expect it....the girls need me right now and i need 2 be a strong mommie 4 them, its not fair to them that im sad....i had play time with them 2day and realized that they love me as much as peanut did, i decided to make them matching clothes...i think they would look good in purple....will be posting pics soon....hugs all** hope ur all lookin forward 2 the week end..i decided saturday i will sit at peanuts memorial spot with the girls 2. sighs***

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What I did with my Nuggie (who passed in 200 was write a letter to her. I have kept everything regarding my dogs in a notebook. vet receipts, surguries, x-rays, consults, test results etc there. So the other day, I took it out because someone needed the meds she was on, and there was the letter! In the very front of the book. I cried again thinking of her! She was a difficult little dog, not 'nice' like my chi's now are. A pet store puppy from a mill probably. She would snarl at me, if I invaded her space! Never bit, and I could do anything to her, but with the initial 'Leave me Alone' snarl!

The other thing is stop looking for a 'clone' for peanut. There will never be one like him. Just look for a pup that needs you! Rescue. Look at Petfinder.com or Chihuahua rescue. Good luck Sue

How are you holding up sweetie? *hugs*

So...things are getting a lil better, the pain is slowly but surely easing up..dont get me wrong i totally still miss my peanut, but my girls have helped me deal with it and just keep me strong. I am able 2 look at peanuts pictures more now with out crying, he was such a happy boi, and it makes me feel better to know he was so loved. My son is dealing with it better now also, and we are able 2 both share our happy times with peanut now with out getting so sad, he was such a silly boy. I will post a really funny pic of him soon, it always makes me giggle when i see that pic. Looking forward to valentines day, my girls need a vday t shirt idk if i will make one or go buy some. I keep them matching lately, freeda wears an xs and daisy mae wears a sm. Worried about daisy she had a lil weird pain in her belly yesterday, so im going to take her 2 the vet n see what that's all about. She seems fine now but im still worried. I can't wait for it to be a lil warmer outside , i really want to take them 2 the lake. I am thinking of getting them micro chipped but i don't know how it works, if it hurts etc. For now i am getting them custom made collar tags i saw some really cute ones someone posted on here weeks back. Daisy and Freeda have been getting closer, freeda misses peanut i can tell but shes also trying 2 get closer to daisy so that's awsome. hugs to everyone on the forum that commented and supported me through hard times , thow i don't know you all much you dont imagine how much i needed you guys during those sad times, you helped me deal with it all with kind words. Hugs happy vday n hope everyone is having a great week end!!! muah

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Thank you all who have been so kind, i love this forum because of the people that use it. Evryone here is so nice and supportive, it really helps alot 2 know and see other chi lovers that have similar stories and so much love for chis! Things have been getting better lately , i could'nt of done it with out you guys and this forum! lots of hugs n many thanks to u all!!!!

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