Hello, im Laura...i guess im not that good at words at this moment. Today was a ruff day. I decided to use this forum in a way to vent and be able to share my thoughts, feelings and ina way deal with the pain in my heart. On new years right after midnight my 14 year old companion peanut passed away, this dog was like a human, very smart , very loveable and went though wo much with me. He was with me though alot of hard times, we cuddled every night and he went everywhere with me. I still am not dealing well with him being gone....i say this with tears in my eyes and a painful knot in my throat. My so called friends tell me im nuts, that im being over dramatic that he was just a dog, no one gets me...peanut was like my child. Spoiled rotten all his life, I loved him and still love him and miss him every single day. I cant even count the nights i cry myself 2 sleep....I just wish i could hold him again. ...I miss just having him around me, ugh this is painful 2 even talk about this. People keep telling me it will get better...but at this moment i just cant shake it off...I miss u my lil peanut butter cheese cup. r.i.p. My bestfriends dad built him a lil memorial spot in our backyard, with a beautiful big stone ontop, where i can write on it and i still cant go to that spot. If you have lost a pet that you were this attached to and loved this much , tell me does it get easyer?


This is 2 months before he passed away....i Made him this sweater he loved being warm on my bed...

I'm so sorry about little peanut,it is such a hard time when you loose an animal as so many of us on here know,he was so lucky to have a wonderful owner like you."HUGS"

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so sorry about ur passing in every death of a loved one in ur life there will be heartache and then peace. sometimes if ur ready enough emotionally a life is born and more love can be given. as for your so called friends...oooooooo!!!! i would punch them straight in the face > "just dogs"...might as well say when they complain next time about their nails breakin...just human! ignorant people have no space in my life...gah!

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thank you for your kind words i needed this, this is the first forum i came across about chihuahua lovers. As far as my friends, i stopped talking to most of them(i just cant deal with them saying that 2 me) life doesnt just go one sometimes, just been keeping to myself and spending time with my son and bestfriend, they were both close 2 peanut as well. I spoke 2 my mom today, i havent spoke 2 anyone in my family since new years, when i told her she said " oh laura its just a dog dont get so attached, i said mom he was more than just a dog , ive had him since i was a teenager he was my companion though alot of stuff in my life" she said well at least now u can travel and not worry about bringin dogs....i just changed the subject she doesnt understand and i dont have it in me right now 2 explain 2 her how i really feel....only animal lovers understand me...ther not just pets there like our children...everyone that lives here loved him so much...i cant even see his pictures with out crying ....

Some people just don't understand that our dogs are not just pets to us, they are friends or like our children in a way. And in my experience my little girl is a better friend to me than any human friend I have ever really met. It will get easier for you as it does when people lose one that they love. You're Mom, I think, is trying to get you to feel better and doesn't know how to deal with the pain you're feeling right now. It's understandable but not altogether acceptable. Your friends are being a little ignorant and I am happy you are standing up for yourself and removing them from your life for the time being while you sort your feelings out and heal a little bit.

I'm sorry for your loss Wawies. You have my sympathy and if you need anyone to talk to I'm here. I've lost pets before and I know how it feels like a big weight is crushing you everyday and you can't breathe or talk or live or do anything.

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Aerials, in the Sky, when you lose small mind you free your life. Aerials so up high, when you free your eyes, eternal prize.

Thank you for the Siggy Pastel!

I'm so very sorry for your loss I also come from a family who are not
"dog people"; my mom has also said things about the dogs tying me down and
not being able to travel... She just doesn't get that they are my family. It
hurts when people close to you do not understand. But Laura, please take
comfort in knowing that there are countless people here who care and who can
relate to what you are going through. It's only been a few weeks since your
loss. Allow yourself to heal in your own time and your own way.
Welcome to Chi Ppl. {{ hugs }}

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"My little dog - a heartbeat at my feet." - Edith Wharton

Hi,

Sorry for your loss. Take the time you need to grieve. No one can tell you how long that will take. It sounds like you have a lot of love to give. Perhaps you would share that love somehow to help with the grief. I'm glad you found this forum. It is full of wonderful, supportive, honest people.

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I'm so sorry about Peanut. My Cosmo was 14.75 when he died Easter 2010. Luckily my family loved him as much as I did. I knew he wasn't going to make it thru the day. He died sometime between midnight and 2am tucked between my side and my arm. I got him when I was 14 and very sick. He was everything to me. Such personality and so smart! He came from a great show breeder, but had a birth defect due to his position in the womb. I have his ashes in a little urn on my nightstand. I think the fact that my Doberman puppy, Ripley, had come home about two weeks before Cosmo died. So most of my thoughts were focus on her.
Just remember he he knows you love him and he made it his full life.