I had a (I know she was not a chi, but I wanted to post) dog (cross breed) called Kiki. She was my soul mate and I loved her so much. She was 19 when she died. SHe was so old and a bit poorly. I shouted at her because she did a poo on my bed. And a little while later, I found her in a bad state in her basket. I rushed her to the vet and they said she had a heart murmer. I cried and cried in the waiting room. And they asked me if they should put her to sleep. I said no, I went to tell ehr I loved her, and she died, there with me hugging her.
And it hurts so much.