This is a very hard time for you and your family. But your grief is simply a symptom of the joy and love you had the fortune to share for 17 years. LadyBug knew she was loved. What a wonderful life she had with people who loved her so much.
I hope you find peace and healing in time. Until then, be kind to yourself. You have suffered a great loss. Be patient with yourself. Offer yourself compassion.
Many thoughts to you......