My Heidi has gone. - Chihuahua Forum : Chihuahua Breed Dog Forums

Kezza · #1 05-17-2007, 09:51 AM

Hi everyone.

I don't come on here as often as i used to..you know what it's like when life gets hectic.

I had to say goodbye to my 14 year old yorkie yesterday and it was the hardest thing i have ever had to do.
She had cancer and had been coughing then her breathing became very laboured, she wouldn't sleep and became very exhausted. Our vet said we could try dieretics (sp?) to try and get rid of the fluid on her lungs but i knew in my heart that the time was right to let her finally get the sleep she so desperately needed. She was given a sedative first and she looked so peaceful.

She has been a huge part of my life for so long, I was only 19 when i got her at 8 weeks (i'm now 33) she was there when i met my husband, was at our wedding and was there when we brought our newborn son home from hospital, he is now 12 and has coped remarkably well.

My heart feels very heavy and i'm totally numb, i'm walking around in a daze.
I know i will feel better one day..i'm taking each day as it comes but theres a huge void in my life now and it will never be the same again.

Cherish your babies..life is unbearable without them. x

lebecron · #2 05-17-2007, 10:09 AM

I lost my Bichon Frise, Holly, 18 months ago (she was 14) and, unlike you, I held on too long. She too had cancer and instead of letting the vet put her to sleep before she suffered, I took any drugs they would hand over to give her a little longer. She ended up really bad on a Sunday when the Vets were not open and in the end I had to call the vet out on emergency call out, because her breathing was so bad. Unfortunately, she died literally about a minute before the Vet could put her to sleep. I still feel so bad about that. My little girl could have gone peacefully a week or two before but instead, I let her suffer. I feel so selfish now! I just couldn't let go. It's so good that you were able to do the right thing. It is really painful for a long time but we buried her in our garden and she has a little cross with her name on it, so I often go to say "hello". It was devastating for my kids too, as they had known her all their little lives. Hope you feel a little better soon.

Fran.

Rubyfox · #3 05-17-2007, 10:57 AM

awwww bless, I am so sorry to hear your sad news.
RIP Heidi
I know what you mean about feeling numb, I felt like I was in another world for a while too.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

sullysmum · #4 05-17-2007, 12:54 PM

Toatally understand your feelings, it hurts like hell, but the happy memories will come through stronger than the pain and you can remember her happily without hurting as much.