Paco and I haven't been on line for a very long time but I had to come to a place where I knew people would understand my loss and my grief. Paco died Tuesday Feb. 10, 2007 as the result of a misdiagnosis of a vet! I had taken him to the vet on Saturday but he was having difficulty breathing... they marked it off as bronchitis and gave him a diarectic shot and antibotic and sent him home with some cough suppressant pills. They said he also had a slight heart murmur but wouldn't need medication for that at this time. He's breathing did improve over the next three days but when I got home from work Tuesday night I noticed a huge change. He was tripoding, was obviously having difficulty breathing, he was using accessory muscles to breath, he wouldn't eat, he wouldn't drink. I called the vet at home right away. It was a different vet so I had to explain everything to him, he said "Ah it's just that his brachial tubes have been irritated bring him in in the morning. As the evening progressed he got worse. He couldn't lay down but for a minute, then he'd stand up... you could tell he was so tired. He walked to his food dish and just looked at it, he was hungry but he couldn't eat, he'd take three steps then have to sit down. I looked at him and cried, I knew he was dying but I didn't know what to do for him. At 10:00 I went to go to bed and walked into my dark bedroom to put a glass of water on the bedside table and I tripped over him, I turned on the light just as he took his little body took its last breathe. I laid down on the floor with him crying my eyes out begging him not to be dead but his little heart had stopped. I laid there for what seemed like hours petting him and talking to him. I wrapped him up in his blanket and we sat on the couch, I continued to pet him and kiss him and talk to him and cry. I didn't know what to do with him. I finally called my ex husband who came to the house and he had to practically drag him from my arms, I didn't want to let him go. My ex took him home and promised to bring him back in the morning so we could bury him under the tree he liked to lay under and watch me play with his big horse sister Cheyenne. I held his cold hard body and rocked him and talked to him the whole time my ex was digging the hole, which was a difficult task since that area was full of roots and rock. He came to take Paco from me but I said "no", I lowered him down in the hole and with my hands gently covered him with dirt. I have never in my life felt so much grief over an animal. He was the first small house dog I've ever had and I was wrapped around his little paw. He would have been 8 years old next month. My husband and I have been separated for 15 months and Paco has been my everything. I don't know what I'm going to do with out him. My heart is so broken and nobody seems to understand... I know y'all will and that's why I needed to share my story with you. Thank you and God Bless all of you and your furbabies.

I'm sooo very sorry for your loss. Everyone here will definitely understand your broken heart. Was this 2 years ago, or did you mean 2009, so just 2 days ago?

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I'm crying after reading this. I'm so so so sorry. I know nothing anyone says will make it better, but you will find support and comfort here. God bless him now in heaven and you xxxx

I'm crying with you x
run free at the bridge little man x

Aw I am so sorry to hear of your loss of Paco. Your story made me cry.

All i can say is even though he is gone in body he is beside you always in spirit

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A loving home is a home with chis

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know your heart is broken into a million pieces and you're grieving deeply over losing your precious fur baby. Bella, Lina, and I send hugs to you. Rest in peace, sweet Paco.

If it be I grow frail and weak,
And pain should wake me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle can’t be won.

You will be sad, I’ll understand,
Don’t let your grief then stay your hand,
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love and friendship stand the test.

We’ve had so many happy years,
What is to come will hold no fears,
You’ll not want me to suffer, so,
When the time comes, please let me go.

I know in time, you too will see,
It is a kindness you do me,
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering, I’ve been saved.

Do not grieve that it should be you,
Who has to decide this thing to do
We’ve been so close, we two, these years,
Don’t let your heart hold any tears.

Author Unknown

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Bella is chocolate blue tri-color. Lina is blonde.

Im so sorry!

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Toby Fynn McCaul
Irish PennyRosie O'Grady

Most of us have been there, we know what heartache you are feeling,nothing anybody can say can make you feel better,but knowing there are peole out there helps.

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