I am 24 years old, and friendless (other then my 4 year old chihuahua sissy).
I have been not feeling myself lately.
I have been trouble sleeping,
blank mind practically 24/7
my mind won't register anything and info goes out one ear out the other.
other then that I just don't feel myself.
I do suffer from PTSD from an event that happened 3-4 years ago. I just don't feel like myself. I lost my interests. I used to love disney world. i used to go yearly w/ my mom before i started looking back and thinking about 20+ years into the future when I would not have any body to go w/.
I have no friends and feel very anxious and have anxiety when meeting people.
. I just feel like i'm dependent on my mom and dad and just can't open up to people. I used to be very open and trust worthy. I still kind of was open and trust worthy last year but everything changed.
I have trouble sleeping... I go to bed a 2am get up at 7am/8am and feel like i'm dazing out on auto-mode.
. I just feel like all the bad things happen to my family while other people just go through life easy peasy w/ nothing bad ever happen to them.
(I was bullied from 5th grade until i graduated college and had no true friends because they all liked me because of my cute older brother. they were not truthful. for instance, i called a friend up on the phone to invite her to something and she put me on hold and told her mother she wanted to hang out w/ someone else. But when she came back on the phone she told me she had to stay home and clean her room... i guess she didn't know i could hear her.). i just have anxiety when i talk to people strangers and family and rethink what i said because i think i sound dumb or stupid to other people.
I just feel stressed out all the time and seem to lack my sense of fun.