I'm sorry I haven't been here much. I have a lot going on in my life right now. My husband and I are separating. He is an alcoholic and I've had enough. I'm open to reconciliation down the road if he shows me he is going to get help and I see at least a year of sobriety but I can't watch him kill himself anymore and I have two daughters to think about. They're almost 18 and 15. We will have been married 20 years in August.
I looked for apartments here, but they're very expensive. I'm moving the girls and myself in with my parents for awhile to pay some things down and hopefully save some money. I was shooting for 6 months but now I think 9 months to a year is more likely. The chis are coming along!
I wouldn't think about moving in with them if I couldn't bring the babies. I'll have the basement to myself and they'll stay down there with me. The basement is very nice, and finished. The girls will have bedrooms upstairs.
I'm not filing for divorce yet....I want to wait it out and see what happens. He's been seeing a counselor, and she's helped him a lot but she's also bringing things to the surface that he's tried to repress by self medicating. He's getting ready to enter into out patient rehab as well tomorrow. He'll go one time a week with her, and three times a week for 3 hours for rehab. I pray it helps him get better, and also that if we aren't around and he can concentrate on him he'll get well.
Anyway I hope everyone is well. Please keep me in your prayers and thoughts. I'm really sad right now but trying to concentrate on doing what's best for my girls.