I am so sorry for your loss...its natural to grieve, we all do it in our own way....having a chronic illness must add to your feelings of helplessness in this situation....there are some good support groups online for bereavement ....Hopefully Sammie will pick-up in a few days.....my girls looked for our Nabi for about a week after she passed last year......give her lots of hugs and kisses....:daisy: