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Hello,
I am 24 years old, and friendless (other then my 4 year old chihuahua sissy).
I have been not feeling myself lately.

I have been trouble sleeping,
blank mind practically 24/7
my mind won't register anything and info goes out one ear out the other.

other then that I just don't feel myself.
I do suffer from PTSD from an event that happened 3-4 years ago. I just don't feel like myself. I lost my interests. I used to love disney world. i used to go yearly w/ my mom before i started looking back and thinking about 20+ years into the future when I would not have any body to go w/.

I have no friends and feel very anxious and have anxiety when meeting people. :(. I just feel like i'm dependent on my mom and dad and just can't open up to people. I used to be very open and trust worthy. I still kind of was open and trust worthy last year but everything changed.

I have trouble sleeping... I go to bed a 2am get up at 7am/8am and feel like i'm dazing out on auto-mode. :(. I just feel like all the bad things happen to my family while other people just go through life easy peasy w/ nothing bad ever happen to them.

(I was bullied from 5th grade until i graduated college and had no true friends because they all liked me because of my cute older brother. they were not truthful. for instance, i called a friend up on the phone to invite her to something and she put me on hold and told her mother she wanted to hang out w/ someone else. But when she came back on the phone she told me she had to stay home and clean her room... i guess she didn't know i could hear her.). i just have anxiety when i talk to people strangers and family and rethink what i said because i think i sound dumb or stupid to other people.

I just feel stressed out all the time and seem to lack my sense of fun.
 

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Megan,
I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Unfortunately no one here can do more than provide
moral support. If you suspect you are depressed, please talk to your family doctor. They
can help to determine if you have a physical problem going on or if you need a referral
to a mental health professional. You seem to have a great deal of insight into what you
are experiencing. That is a fantastic first step! As for being "friendless"--well, that is
just not true :) There are many people here who offer their friendship each time they
answer your posts! I look forward to seeing you around the Board. Take Care.
 

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i'm sorry to hear you're having a tough time.
all i can do to help is recommend a book for you to read.

it's called "Sunbathing in the Rain: A Cheerful Book About Depression" by Gwyneth Lewis.
it really helped me through some low points in my life and has helped every one of my friends that i've recommended it to. seriously.
 

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sissy, sorry to here about your depression. I can sort of relate in that I moved to the city several years ago and didn't know anybody here at all. What helped me a lot in overcoming feelings of isolation was to join web forums for hobbies that I've been involved in. I also started participating in my local dog community (i.e. meet ups, rescue groups, etc.). I've met a lot of good people from my local meet up groups and I look forward to seeing them every month. I hope things turn around for you soon.
 

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Megan, Hello, I am so sorry you are feeling that way. Come on and chat with us anytime. There are alot of really nice chi fans on here
 

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I am so sorry you are feeling that way and I know what you are going through. I am living on my own now and the stress of money, school, and work has really gotten me down, along with losing all of my friends. I am going to be seeing a counselor and I hope it helps. I really hope you seek out help from your doctor, it helps a lot to have someone to talk to.
 

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"Ditto" to what all the others have posted Megan. This is a great "friend" place to visit...and having a wonderful Chi companion has got to make you smile;)
I hope you seek professional help and maybe do some reading as suggested. Every little step and effort will help you feel better. Good Luck:daisy:
 

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You have the most important friend the Lord Jesus just call his name and he will hear you. I am also your friend. Also you must see a doctor there was a time I was in bad depression and I seen a doctor and gave my self to Jesus I am all better now.
 

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Hi Megan, I know exactly how you feel, I too had/have depression since I was 24, im now 28.
No matter how often people tell you to cheer up or get on with it and think positive - dont blame yourself if you cant, depression is an 'illness'. However there are other medical explanations for its effects so definately see your GP incase somethings effecting your mood etc.

I still really struggle esp with anxiety in social situations - I cant bare socialisation. I was once a really strong character, but down to hurtful things people had said about me, I lost it all and Im struggling to find that side of me again.

If you want to get things off your chest or discuss stuff just PM me on here, it really helps to talk. :hello1:
 

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I am feeling exactly the same. I suffer with PTSD, I'm currently (kind of) in witness protection. It's lovely to be safe now and I fully appreciate the fresh start I was given however, memories never fade do they? And frightened habits are tough to break. I too just have my dogs, my family and friends live miles away and never visit and I'm unable to drive. I attempted dog classes but due to being under 30 (and not owning a labrador,which they ALL had there) I didn't really 'fit in'. I don't leave the house apart from my short walks in 'safe' places with the doggys. Problem is I'm even too afraid to go to the dr's but know I have to this week! Feel free to PM me for a more personal chat if you like, we can help each other? Roxanne xx
 

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Megan, first of all...HUGS!
Depression can be extremely crippling, I know first hand since I suffered from it from the early age of 12. Sometimes the traumatic events/issues/problems are so complex that a full recovery is nearly impossible. But most times it is possible to overcome depression and gain control and happiness. I am 27, and am one of the people that never truly got out of depression, but I got better! I deal, and I live one day at a time, tiny step by tiny step. There is no magic solution, it takes work, for some it's therapy, for others meds, relaxation techniques, exercise, healthy nutrition, or even having someone to talk to. Everyone is different, a psychologist can help you choose your method, so don't be shy to ask for help. I understand that it's hard, but you need to come first! You deserve to be happy and healthy! If ever you want to chat about anything from happy to bad thoughts, get in touch with me. I am here for you, seriously! We are no longer strangers, you shared a bit of your story, I shared a bit of mine :)
 
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