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Hi everyone,

I actually can't believe I am saying this, but..
At 6am on Monday the 15th of November, my beautiful 'Precious (his nickname)' baby Max passed away in my mam's arms! :cry:

Ugh, this is so hard to write.. :cry:

This is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through in my whole life.
The whole family was with him when he went, which was a small comfort, as I'd never want him to spend his last moments alone.

I can't even think of anything to say, I have so much so say, but my mind is blank and I'm just so numb.

I feel like my world has ended, and I really don't know how I'm going to live without him. He meant everything to me, words can't describe how much I love him.

I didn't really go anywhere, except for college 3 days a week, apart from that I spent every single moment with my baby Max. He would sit with me all day, and sleep in my bed cuddling in to me at night. Because of that, I'm too scared to be alone at the moment :( whenever I was alone Max was with me! So I've been going everywhere with my Mam, and I've even been having to sleep in my mam's bed too, because I always needed to hear Max breathing on a night for me to get to sleep, it was like a comfort thing, and I just can't bare to sleep in my room without him.

Me & my mam haven't stopped crying since Monday.

I was 9 years old when Max was born, and by the time he was old enough to leave his mam, I was 10. I'm 19 & 1/2 now, Max has been a huge part of my life. Losing him so suddenly and unexpectedly.. I can't cope. I don't know how I'm supposed to go on as normal without him. :cry:


My mam is on the rebound and has been looking for chihuahua puppies, she thinks it would ease her pain. But it would only increase my pain. NO dog could ever be like my Max, he was so unique and special, and no dog could ever replace him. The 9 & 1/2 years we've spent with Max have been the most special years of my life, and I wouldn't have changed them for the world, Max was definitely the dog for us. But this pain.. My heart is physically hurting, not just emotionally. I never want to feel pain like this ever again.

I will probablys never get another dog. I was and still am so attached to Max. I would always be constantly comparing another dog to Max, because no dog could ever be that special, and I don't want to get attached again, because I would only have to go through through this pain and heartbreak again.

I'd do anything to have him back. I've been praying for god to just let me see him one last time, or for him to send me a sign that he's okay. I'd do anything for him to be barking, being naughty, biting me, etc. :cry:

My grandparents (they're not old, only mid-late 50's) have recently moved to a new bungalow, where they will spend the rest of their lives. We thought this would be the perfect place for Max to be burried, because there's no chance of them moving, so we can visit Max as often as we like. We planted lots of beautiful flowers, and burried him with his favourite toy, letters, family photos, etc. We have also ordered a headstone/memorial for his grave.

As if that wasn't hard enough, the next day (tuesday the 16th of nov) we had to see my aunties dog pass away too, she was 15 years old, so she's had her since I was 4 years old. Having to see 2 extremely important family pets pass away and be burried within a day of each other.. It's just too much, it feels like a really bad dream that we can't wake up from. :cry: We think she's passed away so she can go and take care of our baby Max in heaven.

Please cherish every single moment with your chis. I did but still feel he's gone far too soon. :cry:

My entire family and all my friends just adored Max too, he was really something special. I just can't believe he's actually gone. :cry:

Thank you, everyone at Chihuahua People. We've spent a lovely 5 years with you, mostly good times, but also, some bad times. We've found great friends, and gotten invaluable advice here.

But, for now anyways, it's just too painful to come on here. Maybe in time, when the pain eases, I might be able to visit chi-people again, and smile. But for now, goodbye, and thank you for everything you have done for us.

xxxxx
 

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Oh Sarah I am so sorry to hear about Max, it is my worst nightmare to loose a loved pet. I have cried so many times over my animals and though each one holds a place in my heart forever I have made room in my life to love another.
Your heart is broken and its still early days but one day you may think about taking on another pet, never to replace Max but to give the love and care to another.

(((HUGS))) to you in this difficult time

Deme x
 

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Sarah,
Sorry to hear about your heartbreak. Max was very well loved.
My sincere condolences..
 

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I'm so sorry to hear this, Sarah. I am sharing in your pain right now as we also lost a beloved pet of ours this week suddenly also. My heart goes out to you and know that you, your family and Max are in our thoughts. Rest in peace, Max.
 

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I'm so sorry, Sarah. My heart goes out to you and your family, I know how hard it is to lose them. :( Big hugs to you, sweetie. RIP little Max. xx
 

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Oh sweetheart.....I'm so so sorry for you and I understand only too well what you are feeling right now as I just lost my beautiful little Yorkie aged just 3 years old 4 weeks ago and I have been having a terrible time over it...been quite depressed even and I don't know how i'm ever going to pull myself out of it. I used to visit a well know Yorkie forum and I just haven't been able to go there since..I just can't bring myself to post there right now..I even deleted a few members from my facebook because I just couldn't face talking to them and a couple of them have Yorkies that look very similar to my Pixie...it just hurts too much.
So...we all know how you are feeling..most of us have at some point in our lives lost a much loved pet...it WILL get better...I too know it will get better...the grieving process is hard to get through..but you will come out ok the other side and be able to look back on all the lovely times you had with your baby without the pain you are feeling now.
All your friends here that you have made over the last 5 years are here for you.

Kindest regards, Kerry x
 

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I am so very sorry for your loss.
Try to take some comfort in the fact he knew how much he was loved and cherished and he felt the same way about you.

R.I.P little Max. xx
 

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What can i say that the others haven't already said,we all feel your pain i know what you are going through and it will get easier in time and you will look back with a smile on your face remembering all the little things he did that made you laugh,you gave him a fantastic life with so much love.
 

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Sarah, I am so very truly sorry for the loss of your beloved Max. You and your family will be in my thoughts.
R.I.P. Max
 

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Oh Sarah...I am so sad to hear this and my heart goes out to you. bless your heart...everything will be ok and time does have a way of healing . Your memories of Max are saddened right now because of his passing, but those memories have a way of becoming sweet and filling your heart with what I call "Happy Thoughts".
Sending your way... hugs and healing prayers
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I'm so sorry for you loss. I can't imagine how badly you must feel :(
Take comfort knowing max had a wonderfully happy life with you. Remember your special memories together. :) Maybe someday you can open your heart again to another chi. And make some chi a very lucky pet, with all the love you have to give.
Blessings!
 

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So sorry for your loss. Losing a cherished family pet is such a hard thing to go through, and no animal will ever replace Max in your heart, but one day you will ready to love another dog.
 
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