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Hi girls, most of you will notice I've been absent lately. I decided I wanted to share a little of my story with you, if only to save 1 person from having the same experience, then it will be worth it. Sorry but this will be an essay, but it needs to be!

For the last 3 years, even longer, I've suffered from a whole combination of things - perpetual fatigue whereby I've slept literally 18 hours a day which has all but ruined my life, constant unrelenting depression & foul temper.

I went from being a super woman reno'ing houses, running a large'ish' charity & doing lots of stressful admin & heavy labor to a physical & emotional cripple, to the point I ceased work & ended up on a disability pension (for being a sleeping/emotional wreck). No pain alert, but life was screwed, royally!

My waterworks have been getting worse & worse in terms of incontinence, going far too many times a day & t/out the night, with terrifying urgency that I put down to the onset of old age (50yo). Oh, and often times, even after you think you're done & are re-dressing, whoosh, out of no-where comes some more - then that goes away and comes back later. It's because everything gets pushed, moved pressured etc. Also, you'll pee and then 10 mins later you feel the need to go again. Listen to your plumbing, it's usually the first thing to tell you there's a problem!

My stomach has been bloated to the point of ugliness, but recently over a period of months, it's taken on the appearance of a 6 month pregnant woman & exactly the identical shape too from under the boobies down (the rest of me has remained tiny & thin/trim) and tummy has been rock solid & beyond huge - to the point I had to start wearing maternity smocks and only leggings, much bigger ones than I normally would i.e. size 8 went up to size 14.

Indigestion has been hideous and indescribable, with so many different symptoms I can't begin to list them.

Xmas day I was hobbling around like an 80yo feeling as though I'd torn a muscle in my groin (that freaked me, how could that happen when I sleep 18 hours a day lol).

So called "irritable bowel" had become a way of life, like you would not believe.

Shortness of breath (put that down to my heavy smoking of cigarillos) has been fairly scary but every time that went away so did any thought of seeing a Doctor - that to me seemed like the ONLY real life threatening thing, everything else was just put down to life moving on & various organs getting older & more tired/worn out. But, because I was so depressed, even shortness of breath wasn't really a concern because it meant I could depart the planet sooner.

Every time I went to the Doc to get a prescription renewal for depression meds, I'd angrily lift up my smock & say, "Doc, for pity's sakes, we gotta to something about this guts, I can't stand it" and they never saw it as a priority or offered any options/suggestions.

Well, earlier this week it went to about 8 months pregnant, and that was enough for me, I was seriously worried I'd get stretch marks which I did not either either of my 2 children, one being 9lb 2oz - I bitched & whinged to a girlfriend I'd been moaning to about it 2 years earlier when she had emphatically said, "I'm telling you, you've got exactly what I got, just go get an ultrasound, they'll do ..... and .... and .... & you'll be better than you ever were!" I ignored her. This time I was spurred into action and I went on the web & searched "Ovarian Cancer".

I made an appt. the very next morning, stormed into Dr. saying, "I'm here for an u/sound for O/cancer". I walked out of there, straight across the road & had it done. I knew straight away there was something drastically wrong even though she didn't indicate a thing.

I read the report before going back to Dr. Hmm, 3 largish (1-2") cysts and an unidentified mass 6" x 5" x 6" - which, guess what, this little family of aliens had been using ALL of my hormones to feed themselves and grow, hence they had destroyed my life during the preceding 3++ years. Remember this, EVEN BENIGN CYSTS and other masses have to use your hormones to start, survive and grow - those hormones you're not getting will be the ruination of you.

Within 24 hours as at yesterday arvo, I had numerous blood tests, a CT scan, have been told they cannot say for certain that the large mass is not cancerous (will know after biopsy). I'm booked to be intro'd to my Professor surgeon on Tues a.m. and will be having a radical hysterectomy done by him next Friday - soooo excited about that, sick to death of periods at 53yo!!!

The thing with ovarian cancer is that it is incredibly common, oh yes it is, and the worst part is that it is stealthy & silent, AND, is almost always diagnosed as some other illness or condition initially, so that by the time it's caught with a simple ultrasound, it's often in advanced stage of malignancy.

I can only say that if you have 2, 3 or more of those symptoms, please, please go and ask your Dr for an Ultrasound to make sure it's not. DO NOT ignore it like I have - I've missed the boat for simple key-hole surgery and have risked my life which I'm extremely embarrassed about for my 13yo son, my beloved pack of puppies and those who love me.

I'm confident mine will be found to be benign, but there's still a chance it may not be. Even though this insidious damn thing will probably end up being benign, it's taken a HUGE chunk out of my life I won't get back, and turned it upside down, inside out by ruining my career, my mental health & well being - those hormones are what keep us sane, balanced & healthy - DO NOT FEED THE INTERNAL TROLLS girls, kill them, kill them with the scalpel!!!

It breaks my heart that you don't have a medical system like we do - so far none of this has cost me a cent, and I believe health insurance will cover 100% of all expenses yet to come, if not, at worst it'll cost me $500 max. an I will be in a 5* luxury private hospital for a week. Even though it may cost you $'s to get yourself checked out via a simple, easy ultrasound, please, please do not let that stop you, it could well save you from being where I am today - facing the biggest surgery a woman can have, and it could've been avoided if I'd listened to my body (and friend) years ago. There are 1,000's of women who lose their lives to this, I cannot stress strongly enough how important it is to act as the first sign & do NOT back down until the Docs do what you tell them to damn well do!
 

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Dee, I love you, I missed you, and I'm sorry to hear about all of the challenges
you've been dealt. It breaks my heart. But I know you, I know you are strong
and I know you will get through it all. I have an abdomen and pelvic ultrasounds
scheduled for the 17th of January. I have to get them done regularly because of
my disease. I was going to postpone the appointment due to my current well
being, or lack thereof, but after reading your story I won't. Thank you for being
so brave and sharing your story, I'm sure it will help several people. Hugs.

I'm here for you my friend, anything you need, anything at all, just ask.
 

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Wow Dee. I wondered where you were, but I had no idea something l Ike this was going on. I hope you feel better after the hysterectomy. And I pray it isn't cancerous- please let us know when you find out. As terrible as it is, I am so happy you finally have a game plan and know what was causing you such misery. You are a tough lady and you can get through this. If you need anything please let me know.

I will be thinking of you. Xoxo


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Oh Dee I am so sorry to hear this but on the other hand I'm so glad you finally went to see a doctor. It's funny bc we would do anything to take the very best care of our pups but we always put ourselves last. I am guilty of this too but not to this extent. I hope it comes back benign and thanks for the heads up post. Being a healthcare professional, I agree with you, we know our own bodies the best so if things are off, we need to get checked out ASAP before it turns into something worse.
This past year I was so irritable, unhappy, gaining weight like no other, and so so tired. My mom finally made me get my bloodwork done and my tsh and thyroid antibody levels were off the charts-hypothyroidism.
Please keep us posted on your progress! Be strong, we are all here for you! Your presence has really been missed. Praying for you Dee!! Hugs and kisses love!!!


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hi Dee,
i'm so sorry to hear that you have not been feeling well all this time :( . i'm sending positive thoughts your way and will be thinking about you on Friday when you have your surgery. Also i am wishing you a speedy recovery.
Lots of Love and Hugs, E
 

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Ah treasures, hugs to you all.

It's hard to explain, but whilst I'm feeling confident it will be benign, if by some small chance it turns out not to be, I'm fine with that too. I'm really not stressed about which way the coin falls to be honest, but I know the majority are different to me, and hence my reason for sharing. I've read the stories of the women who've battled it, and I simply want to alert as many as I can that so many of us get cysts, get them out!!!! Have your smears, mammograms AND ultrasounds (every couple of years I would say).

I know most would never understand that mindset, but it's mine and I've had it forever - I have a completely different view about death/dying to most people, it doesn't frighten me in the least (because I am in control, it will be exactly as, when and how I plan it - unless it's an accident or I am incapable of proceeding to my plan). And there'd be an extensive & very delightful overseas jaunt before farewelling family & loved ones.

Yes, I speak of euthanasia, I'm an avid member of Exit International and applaud them for their cause. Our Govt. ensures that 75% of old people who can no longer take their illness, incapacity whatever take their own lives by hanging - that is unnecessary, barbaric and inhuman for anyone to be put in that position, when there are other completely stress and pain free ways to leave behind their world of pain & suffering.

We do it for our pets, why can we not do it for ourselves? My coffee cup says, "I'd Rather Die Like a Dog" - think about that .... I wish the damn self-righteous, do-gooder Politicians would!!!!
 

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Oh Dee I am so sorry to hear this but on the other hand I'm so glad you finally went to see a doctor. It's funny bc we would do anything to take the very best care of our pups but we always put ourselves last. I am guilty of this too but not to this extent. I hope it comes back benign and thanks for the heads up post. Being a healthcare professional, I agree with you, we know our own bodies the best so if things are off, we need to get checked out ASAP before it turns into something worse.
This past year I was so irritable, unhappy, gaining weight like no other, and so so tired. My mom finally made me get my bloodwork done and my tsh and thyroid antibody levels were off the charts-hypothyroidism.
Please keep us posted on your progress! Be strong, we are all here for you! Your presence has really been missed. Praying for you Dee!! Hugs and kisses love!!!


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Yeppers, you got it in ONE!!! Always making sure our animals & everyone else is fine but for some reason, be it fear, too busy, lack of care, whatever, ignoring ourselves and any signs of anything different, especially when they can be put down to simply getting older.

Isn't it such a shock when bloods or something else comes back off the scale - it's so hard to believe there was anything wrong at all, that only ever happens to other people and we spend our time worrying/praying for them!

Obviously I've now done extensive reading on this topic & it seems the ovaries are almost more prone than other organs to have hiccups - we're born with the number of eggs we need to go through our entire lives and they fare far, far better if they have regular, reasonably long breaks, be that from pregnancy, or taking the Pill etc. The weirdest thing is that many cysts contain hair, and even teeth etc., hence me calling them my little tribe of aliens hehehehe.
 

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Dee I am so glad you went and got checked out! Wow, that is really scary and a wake up call for many of us, including me. I think we tend to take things for granted until they get to the point where we can't even function - before finally going to find out what is going on. I'm so glad your friend prodded you to get that testing done. I pray that the mass is benign and once its removed, you can continue on with no problems!! I have been thinking of you and wondering how you were. I'm so glad you came and let us know with this update. I truly think that your post will help others. Keep us posted on that surgery. You know you have a whole ton of people behind you and lifting you up. :)
 

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I am so sorry for the trouble you are having. I hope all goes well and you are on the road to recovery soon. I will be praying for you and sending good thoughts.


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Oh my... I'm so glad you got checked out.
This is kind of a wake up call to me as well. I have some abnormalities that I've figured were due to anxiety, diet, stress, etc. I know I shouldn't ignore it. It's so much easier to say it's minor and brush if off, even if that isn't always the case.

Please keep us posted. I'll be thinking of you.
 

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Dee, if it's not too personal, can I ask you how long have you had these symptoms for?
 

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So sorry to hear you having to go through this! We should always listen to our bodies. I hope all is well.
 

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I just went through an ovarian cancer scare last year. Had a 11 cm cyst, another smaller cyst, ovary , Fallopian tube removed. It turned out not to be cancer but I too put off the symptoms. There is a reason it's called the silent killer. I am sure like me you will be fine and you will feel so much better.
 

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Dee, thank you for posting this, a lesson to us all to watch out for changes which most of us do put down to getting older etc etc etc.

I wish you the very best, and hope that the results are good, it is good that you are tackling this now, the sooner the better - hugs to you xo
 

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Thanks girls, I'm ever, ever so pleased this is making you think about your own baby making factories, if not now, down the track when you "feel" something is ary you'll act!

Yes Krystall, I certainly did say "teeth" - the body is a bizarre thing. I saw one tumour cut open, it looked like a huge abalone (a shell fish similar to an oyster but huge, not sure if you guys call them that) and it had heaps of long black hair inside of its hollow centre. I often wonder if the body thinks it's going to make a baby without the necessary sperm & loses the plot a bit.

LS I can't really say how long the symptoms have been there, except I know I've been sleeping 18 hrs a day for the last 3 years at least and, before that, I would take a couple of weeks off occasionally to just sleep but then head back to work.

The fat belly has been for a long time, but only really distended for probably the last year - I have to keep asking friends how long I've been moaning about different major symptoms. I do know for the last 6 months I haven't been able to wear or buy normal clothes.

The hard part is that the symptoms creep up on you and you remain oblivious to most ... irritable bowel, urinary issues, and because they start out slowly as these things are growing and then get slowly worse & worse as they grow you really don't notice them and just learn to live with them. Whoever said it is a "silent killer" was absolutely right because you have no idea these aliens have taken up residence & are building a little village.

I would, if I had my time over, just have an ultrasound every 2 years. These darn things are prone to returning after you have them removed, in the same or different spots and if they're only cysts, then that's fine. They have meds that help with keeping them at bay, even simple things like the pill. However, it's not until you have a hysterectomy that you can put a stop to all cysts, growths, tumours and masses in that region, and then you get the issue of having to have Hormone Replacement Therapy, in which breast cancer risk follows. In certain stages & with certain growths, after removal, chemo is not effective and some build up a resistance to it anyway. I will NOT be going down that road regardless. It's a very complex & individual problem from one woman to the next, but ALL woman should demand constant surveillance even without symptoms imo.
 
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