Good Morning.
I feel like I've bit hit by a train. By the time Andrew got back with her and we held her and cried like fools, it was about 3:30 am. She just put her little head on my shoulder and went to sleep. At certain times through the night I could feel her heartbeat and pulse slow down and I would lean down and kiss her head and it would speed up. Amazing. I am so glad I had him get her. She has a big morning so we'll see what happens. Of course, I'll keep you all posted. I know I'm repeating myself but the love and support from all of you is overwhelming. The few times I woke up to check on her, I almost forgot it happened. Like it was some bad dream or something. Than the whole night and days events came flooding back to me and her raspy little breathing reminded me that this is not a dream. I don't believe she is any real amount of pain. That is also what the Dr. told me. She is resting comfortably enough, especially when she got back home. Andrew also was so glad I woke him up to go and get her. Whatever happens today, we got a night to hold her together and mourn the days events. I know certain people think we are crazy sometimes but I could actually feel her slipping away from me and my touch and love brought her back. You guys have kept me going and from the bottom of Bambi's heart, we thank you. Whatever happens today with her tests, is meant to be. I am not going to push anything that doesn't feel right. She is so skinny. Her little ribcage is sticking out. She lost 2 oz. yesterday. The fight for life continues... I could just lay here and hold her forever.
Love and Much Appreciation,
Robin, Andrew and Bambi
I feel like I've bit hit by a train. By the time Andrew got back with her and we held her and cried like fools, it was about 3:30 am. She just put her little head on my shoulder and went to sleep. At certain times through the night I could feel her heartbeat and pulse slow down and I would lean down and kiss her head and it would speed up. Amazing. I am so glad I had him get her. She has a big morning so we'll see what happens. Of course, I'll keep you all posted. I know I'm repeating myself but the love and support from all of you is overwhelming. The few times I woke up to check on her, I almost forgot it happened. Like it was some bad dream or something. Than the whole night and days events came flooding back to me and her raspy little breathing reminded me that this is not a dream. I don't believe she is any real amount of pain. That is also what the Dr. told me. She is resting comfortably enough, especially when she got back home. Andrew also was so glad I woke him up to go and get her. Whatever happens today, we got a night to hold her together and mourn the days events. I know certain people think we are crazy sometimes but I could actually feel her slipping away from me and my touch and love brought her back. You guys have kept me going and from the bottom of Bambi's heart, we thank you. Whatever happens today with her tests, is meant to be. I am not going to push anything that doesn't feel right. She is so skinny. Her little ribcage is sticking out. She lost 2 oz. yesterday. The fight for life continues... I could just lay here and hold her forever.
Love and Much Appreciation,
Robin, Andrew and Bambi